Deathseeking...

Deathseeking...

I await the day I die

The day of my salvation

I’ll no more have to cry

It is my final station

Why am-I still living ?

When none wants me alive

Nobody wants forgiving

They only want to deprive

So please finish me off now

Save me from myself

I don’t care why or how

I’m already on the shelf

I hate myself, I hate YOU !

I hate everything happy

I hate love too

Which played with my sanity

All I need is some rest

Life is very exhausting

I have failed in its test

But what is it testing ?

Sadness is driving me colder

I will never be cheerful again

I am no more this soldier

I’m a Deathseeker, not a man

M.K. Ibn Hadj Kacem

May 6th 2010