Random

Random.

You turn to me… Tune in… And then you drop out…

And then you turn again… Tune in… And then you drop out…

Oscillating like the sea waves...

Why are you doing this ?

Can’t you stay still for a second ?

So I would appreciate your attention…

You’re just uncatchable…

Alternating in and out of focus…

Making me doubt my own existence… And more dangerously… The existence of my feelings…

Is this real ? None of this is real… Help me, get me out of here ! No… Wait ! Let me stay just a little longer…

Or not ! I wanna flee ! Shut down everything ! Escape… To a land of nothingness… Nothing to think about… No more chasing false hopes, no more frigging alternations between dream and reality, happiness and pain…

Whatever I feel, I just want it to be constant… Everlasting… Infinite… Eternal… Unconditional… Yes, unconditional…

Well then, if it’s unconditional then I should stay… Stay and not condition it with anything… But those frigging oscillations are driving me crazy !!!

No… Not unconditional then...

Forgive me…

For leaving you alone…

Forgive me…

For not staying anymore…

You want me to stay ?

Can you show me something that I haven’t seen before ?

Can you tell me a story that I don’t know ?

Can you do all those things for me ?

Just let me go....

Inspired from the Lyrics of "Infected Mushroom" songs